Friday, September 14, 2007

I hate my husband.

I know I'm not alone. I don't know if any other women hate my husband, but I'm pretty sure there are other women who hate their husbands. We just don't say so do we. But we think it, and we feel it.

I hate him for treating me so disrespectfully. I hate him for calling me "bitch", "cunt". Those words cut deep and a woman can never feel the same way about a man after he calls her that.

I hate him for forgetting I am a woman and treating me like his servant.

I hate him for rarely sleeping in the same bed with me.

I hate him for rarely taking a vacation with me.

I hate him for rarely taking me out on a date.

I hate him for rarely bringing me flowers.

I hate his cluelessness.

I hate him for making sexual comments about other women.

I hate him for looking at porn.

I hate him for only making love to me once a month since we got married.

I hate him for being so cheap with me even though he has lots of money.

He is so fucking lazy. He is the laziest man I have ever seen. I had no idea. His schedule:

noon: wake up
-1:30 lay in bed
-3:00 get up and eat breakfast.
-4:30 get the mail and read catalogs and offers for miracle cures.
-6:30 go on internet
-8:00 make dinner and eat
-11:00 play the guitar
-3:00 back on the internet

except on rare occasions, schedule does not include housework, or even moving his own shit off the dining table or anywhere else.

Okay. I admit it, I sound like a bitch. But which came first? The way he treated me came first. I was not like this before.

Why doesn't she just leave you ask? I am. I am leaving. There's a world out there.There is life out there. I want to live again.


Anonymous said...

I know what you are feeling, my husband is a ticking time bomb, one day he is fine and if I say something he doesnt like or call him on something, Im a fucking bitch, or sometimes an "ungreatful bitch" and its true you never feel the same way about them, I wasnt sure about that but you said it like it is. Disrespect, once its gone , its gone!

jennie said...

I'm so sorry that you are going through that anon. Once those things happen, it takes a lot of caring for a long time to repair.

I hope you are learning about emotional/verbal abuse and getting support for yourself.

Rose said...

I hate my husband too. Im going to leave him he called me a cunt, a fucking cunt, shut your fucken fat mouth you funken cunt. Im leaving the bastard.

Anonymous said...

Yep, I completely understand, my husband and I have been married for two years Nov 21st and not 2 Weeks earlier he changedfrom being the sweetest guy ever for the most part, into a freaking schizophrenic psycho. I'm not aloud to voice my opinion or have a disagreement about anything without being verbally beat down being called a "stupid bitch ass cunt, that's selfish and thinks of no one but my slut skank Ass self" over nothing anywhere close to serious. And I have never heard of men calling a woman, let alone their wife such horrible things. Its like he went bipolar within a month. And his excuse its that he 's been bottling it all up for the last 3 years. But yet the next day he is groveling at my feet. I can't keep doing this, I have emotions and thinkwe should be able argue civilly with out those reprecutiins any time I seem discontent. I really think (but never would have before) this is a precurser to worse things to come, but I'm not sure. I don't want to leave him but I don't know what to do. Any advice would be awesome, I don't what to live like this forever. Any opinion I have can't be voiced because, he will cut me off before he knows what I'm gonna say, then mocks what he thinks I was gonna say, and he won't let me finish because he stated "he's done caring about my feelings". After us being next door neighbors, then best friends then the man I married, and I do everything I can to make him happy, in every which way, which im sure we can all relate to. And yeah, I can be somewhat of a bitch but never verbal abuse even close to that, to any one I've been with. Please help me out if anyone have advice in this situation. Thanks.

Anonymous said...

i am constantly stepping on eggshells and im 10 weeks pregnant. If I dont agree with anything he says im a bitch, cunt. I hate more then anything being called a cunt. And i cant call him anything back or it just gets x234566 times worse. I hate my life. I hate my husband. Hes not even.close to the same person i fell in love with 4 years ago.

Anonymous said...

I'm just now going through this. I am convinced my husband hates me. I am scared about my future with this man because he has made me feel so bad about myself that I often feel like jumping off a bridge....he doesn't get it and doesn't care about changing. Cheating, lying, belittling me, how can I feel any value with myself when I am just "a cunt like my mother "

Christina Breuker-Hernandez said...

thank you for sharing these Posts. I am 26 to be married soon and I am experiencing everything you are describing. We have been engaged for 1.5 years and together for 6 months. I started noticing his anger a year into our relationship and it hit it's peak then, it has simmered down and is now emerging. It is taking alot of my spirit down, I am so happy to find your words as they are a light to my dark tunnel. This is the hardest thing I have ever experienced, i am looking forward to reading more

Christina Breuker-Hernandez said...

I am 26 and I am experiencing a similar experience in my to be soon married situation. We have been together 2 years. I am looking forward to these posts as they are a light to my dark tunnel. Thank you so much for sharing...

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